A Short One

I am so grateful to be sober today. I’m grateful for AA and HP. I’m grateful that we are getting out, that we CAN get out, that we will be safe. I’m grateful for my friends, for my family and for not being alone. I’m grateful that everything lined up for us, that we have each other and that things will get better.

Good morning my friends! I hope everyone had a lovely weekend and for those of you who have off today, get some extra R&R in for those of us who don’t (; 

I was just reading today’s reflection and thinking about how my Daily Reflections book was my grandfather’s. It is literally falling apart, pages coming out, and an old dollar bill that he used as a bookmark that I also now use as a bookmark. My favorite part is seeing what he highlighted everyday, what resonated with him vs what resonated with me and the days he highlighted nothing wondering why. 

Above all else I think that’s the epitome of AA. Just one drunk passing down to another their experience, what they resonate with. I can’t have a conversation with my grandfather but I know he is here. I know he and God and my nana and my noono and my noona and my great grandfather Pearson all kept the dog alive, got us approved for the new apartment, will keep us safe in the next two weeks, during the move. 

I am not feeling better. But there is a light at the end of the tunnel now and I know I will be carried there. That me and Tim and the dog will be carried there by Higher Powers and by AA. AA has shown up for me in the darkest time and if my message can be anything today it is I know how dark it can get. But if you let it, AA will bring back the light. And that doesn’t mean you have to sit in countless meetings if you don’t want to. But let those AA friends be there for you. Let them carry you when you cannot carry yourself. That’s what we are here for. 

And when you are back on your feet you will be able to carry someone else. And that genuinely, is the most beautiful thing. 

Next week you will hear from me in bright and sunny California and I’ll have fear (yes I’m future tripping), I’ll be anxious but I will still have AA. Wherever I go I will always have AA. 

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xx  

Jane